The Silence of Water

I have a terrifying, numbing fear of drowning. I have never had any fond connection to great bodies of water. I adore the ocean and can sit for hours gazing at the soothing ripples and the waves breaking on goldenly grainy shores, and the sound of waves breaking always leave me with a remnant calm and ease in my soul.

I however have absolutely no desire to immerse myself in the ocean. I don’t swim very well and besides the water that seems to want to swallow me into it’s depths, the thought of slimy, scaly covered fish being in very close proximity to any part of my skin, makes me feel an overwhelming sense of dread.

I do swim though, but never alone. I feel very safe when my husband is around, he is an excellent swimmer and I usually use him to bob me around in the water a bit. Swimming pools are just as bad, I feel much more at ease, but when a lot off people jump in and splash about, I do feel a bit overwhelmed and stressed.

This morning I took a glorious soak in a wonderfully fragrant bubble bath. I only had a few hours sleep and had to get up very early to finish a cake that I had to do for a birthday. My entire body felt bruised and sore and immersing myself in hot water seemed like a good idea. Fabulous!! I love how every ache in my body seemed to dissipate. I sunk down allowing the water to wash over my head and face and then I realized, even though water is one of my least favorite things, it has that one aspect that I absolutely love. The moment when the water cover your ears and all you hear is silence, but unlike the usual silence… It is as if everything is so muffled and you can close your eyes and feel almost weightless in it.
Splendidly delightful silence where you are almost blended with the water and all you hear is the soft sound of your own distant heartbeat and the sound of your breathing. Even your thoughts seem weightless and you can just be..

There is something sublimely soothing about that…

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4 thoughts on “The Silence of Water

  1. I know what you are talking about. I have always been a “bad” swimmer, and I never go swimming in the ocean. But I share the same love for it as you. The water is sooo beautiful, but still I got the same fear!

  2. ive always feared water. when my mum was in labour i panicked and gulped lots of amniotic fluid, i was in intensive care with pneumonia but not sure if they are linked. growing up i always feared water, having a bath and dreaded swimming lessons. i can barely swim now. i can shower and bath but im fearful of it being near my face.

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