I feel like crawling into the infant position. Covering my eyes in darkness so that not the faintest ray of light can enter.
I feel like crying a puddle of tears with a volume so great that the warm salty water would rise up around me and over me.
I feel like not taking the slightest breath, refusing the toxic, used up air in my lungs to escape.
I feel drowning and suffocating and darkness.
I want to feel nothing.