Lessons to be learnt

We can learn a lot from children.

Today I was reminded of this after a long conversation with my 12 year old. She has been preparing a speech she had to give for her application for class councillor.

I can almost recite her speech as I have had to listen to it over and over for a week. Asking her how it went she casually replied that everyone laughed at her opening and she knew they were all engaged…

Engaged? My 12 year old knows what this means, and on top of that consciously added something to her speech to achieve this. She always surprised me with her “big” words when she was younger and I am constantly amazed at her mature views on leadership.

On the way to school she told me that she will obviously have to be able to do “this” at some point in her career as a leader. In that moment it just dawned on me. For her there is no question about it, she will be a manager or leader and would need these skills, so best to practise for it now.

She doesn’t over think it and she does not for a moment question her abilities. If only we believed in ourselves as much as we did when we were children, before people came and crushed our spirits or planted doubt in our minds…

I learn a lot from my 12 year old… this time the lesson was ” at least I will not have the what if”s”

She might be tiny, but she is fierce.

Reflections

I can’t remember when I started my blog, 2007 I think. I took some time to reflect on past posts. I don’t think I have ever gone back to read what I have written, but today I did.

What a journey! I went to pick up our passports this morning and opening it up to see our residency visas in there left me a little emotional. Finally they were there… it was a beautiful sight.

I have felt so much lighter since we received the news but today was special and best of all they were issued on my birthday!

We have a challenging year ahead, but I am so excited about the new challenges! Reading some old posts, I realise the journey I have been on. It’s been a challenging one. It has also been a good one.

One of healing, new beginnings, new adventures.

All the toxic people inflicting hurt now gone. My fur baby safe and sound with me. My girls safe and happy. My husband my biggest supporter. I have even taken the first steps confiding in people I hold in high regard and have a sense of trust. I don’t have new friends yet, but have relationships I now feel confident that I can develop.

It’s a good feeling. Looking forward to this year.

Near impossible is still possible…

It’s been a while.. I usually blog when I need to release my unspoken words and emotions.

So much has changed…

I spoke to someone a couple of days ago about a past relationship and it stirred a few very hurtful memories. I got quite emotional reflecting on it and then in that moment I realised that some hurt takes a very long time to heal.

It can take a long time to build up what someone has broken down.

I had a lot to prove and I did. I had a lot to catch up on and I did.

Then a whole lot of good happened and my current husband and I moved countries. I met some good and horrible people along the way and then my husband gave me a little nudge. I ended up with a new job, surrounded by amazing people and best of all I have a great boss. He is super busy and I can’t quite understand why he takes time to help me develop the things I am interested in. I would hate to waste his time.

My courage and confidence fails me on most days, but hoping to get there in the end.

All in all, my ramblings are less because I have fewer of them. I want to focus on the future now. Learn. Grow. Lead.

I still have a lot to prove. Only this time it is proving it to myself and not to others.

Starting with my mid year goal. It’s near impossible but not unrealistic…I will judge myself again after this and see how it has gone.

The song goes… “steady feet don’t fail me know”.