Sleep…not so much

It’s said that sleep is the one thing you cannot catch up on once lost… If that is the case, and beauty sleep is something I definitely need lots of, then I have found the reason behind my saggy eyes, dull skin and questionable mood.

I don’t often sleep well and mostly have a bad night. On rare occasion I’ll sleep an entire night without waking, but as I said… on rare occasion. I wonder if getting less good quality sleep can shorten your lifespan?? Hmmmm definitely something well worth googling.

I have no problems with having a shorter than usual lifespan, but for the moment I would enjoy at least four out of seven nights of good sleep… Sigh

And then of course with very little sleep you are predisposed to so many other ailments… Annoyance and weird food cravings ranking quite high on my list… So feeling super annoyed at the moment and craving anything and everything that I can not possibly find within my grasp, it seems a very long night ahead. Big sigh…


The Silence of Water

I have a terrifying, numbing fear of drowning. I have never had any fond connection to great bodies of water. I adore the ocean and can sit for hours gazing at the soothing ripples and the waves breaking on goldenly grainy shores, and the sound of waves breaking always leave me with a remnant calm and ease in my soul.

I however have absolutely no desire to immerse myself in the ocean. I don’t swim very well and besides the water that seems to want to swallow me into it’s depths, the thought of slimy, scaly covered fish being in very close proximity to any part of my skin, makes me feel an overwhelming sense of dread.

I do swim though, but never alone. I feel very safe when my husband is around, he is an excellent swimmer and I usually use him to bob me around in the water a bit. Swimming pools are just as bad, I feel much more at ease, but when a lot off people jump in and splash about, I do feel a bit overwhelmed and stressed.

This morning I took a glorious soak in a wonderfully fragrant bubble bath. I only had a few hours sleep and had to get up very early to finish a cake that I had to do for a birthday. My entire body felt bruised and sore and immersing myself in hot water seemed like a good idea. Fabulous!! I love how every ache in my body seemed to dissipate. I sunk down allowing the water to wash over my head and face and then I realized, even though water is one of my least favorite things, it has that one aspect that I absolutely love. The moment when the water cover your ears and all you hear is silence, but unlike the usual silence… It is as if everything is so muffled and you can close your eyes and feel almost weightless in it.
Splendidly delightful silence where you are almost blended with the water and all you hear is the soft sound of your own distant heartbeat and the sound of your breathing. Even your thoughts seem weightless and you can just be..

There is something sublimely soothing about that…