Today I am feeling homesick… It’s difficult to explain. Just desperately need something familiar. I’m going to be an auntie, maybe the thought that I am missing out on so many things that are so important to me, makes me feel this way. Questioning if it is all worth it…the constant hard work, the worry, the tremendous sacrifice.
If anything, I am determined. Have no required skills, no desired abilities. But, after spending most mornings and afternoons listening to a tutor, I still feel, and hope, I can prove myself.
Nothing is impossible right? 4 Kids, Uni looming, this mom needs to get her ass in gear and get on with it quickly 😊.
I thought I would share a recent funny moment with you all.
Monday morning I woke up a little late and rushed the girls to get ready as I wanted to be at work early. Meagan asked if I can stop at the ATM so that she can withdraw some cash.
Feeling a little annoyed, knowing I won’t get to work when I wanted to, I reluctantly stopped. I checked with her that she knows how to withdraw money, she confirmed and popped out of the car to go to the ATM.
As I sit watching her, I see her lean closer to the screen…and then I hear her say “hello….hello….” I jumped out of the car and walked over, asking her what on earth she is doing.
“It said..your voice is your identity” she replied. At this point I was cracking up so much! So I told her it’s an add on the ATM screen for your phone banking.
Very calmly she replied; “well I thought I needed to speak to it before I got my money, so I just said hello”
Definitely made me chuckle 😂
My mom’s birthday has come and gone, along with another father’s day. This year was a bit better, maybe it’s in part because I know I will see them in a couple of months…
Drove home tonight and finally sent my baby sister a voice note. I don’t do too well with Skype… seeing family and not being able to touch them is still too hard. Got home feeling exhausted and saw a message.
In that moment where I heard her message…and voice, I felt like I just wanted to be home. To go home and just sit and have a glass of wine with my mom and relax. No pressures to do more or do better or to move house or to stay or too make friends or or or…
Just something simple.