It is what it is..

•November 27, 2015 • Leave a Comment


The thing about silence is it makes you think.. It serves as time to reflect. When nothing can deafen out any other sounds….these are the moments I struggle with most.  The moment where I find myself looking at photos of family like a psycho stalker..taking in the detail, desperately trying to not miss everyone so much.

I would give anything to hug my dad, to feel his beard scratch my face, to hear the distortion of his hearing aid against my ear when he hugs me 😢… And smell my mom and feel her all soft and warm in an embrace.

The list is just endless. Finding yourself in an absolutely beautiful place does not replace another beautiful place… I so miss home and work. My friends at work are all pregnant, I hate that I will miss that. My baby sister is getting married in the New year and it breaks my hart that I will miss it.

Starting a new life is challenging..  A word I have been using so often. Our kids are just so amazing and loving their new found freedom and safety.

I just miss my family and friends, my boozy book club, my beautiful house and my dearest Lily.

People judge so quickly when they hear you are taking your pet with you to wherever it is you are going,  but all I want to do is squish her face and rub my hands through her hair.

Sigh, it has been so challenging. People keep asking how you are doing and the generic response applies..”great thanks”…but all you want to do is stay in bed and mourne the people you miss so much.

Seeing as I can not have my family,  all I want is my dog..and enough money for unbelievably large quantities of wine and at the moment I have neither and prospects are just not looking on the up and up to have either any time soon.

Is that just too much to ask for?

New Sunsets and Full moons

•November 27, 2015 • Leave a Comment


We were sitting on our balcony staring at another absolutely amazing moon. For some unexplained reason the sunsets and rising full moons have been breathtakingly stunning lately.

We have had some lovely weather of late.. well according to us anyway. Some people think it is too humid, others don’t like the bits of rain, but we have enjoyed it.

Life is just so busy lately.  Our days start so late, but end just as late and by the time we have had dinner it is almost bed time for the girls.  We do however get chance to just sit and have a glass of wine and take in the silence surrounding us when the sun sets and the moon rises.  It is just so quiet where we stay, something we are definitely not used to.

Evenings you are lulled of to bed by silence and early morning you are woken by all the different sounds of birds that sound as if all they do is work hard at creating their amazing symphony of harmonic notes.

Weekends still seem like a blind rush with no rest, but with kids there are just always something that has to be done, something last minute needed :)

All in all it’s kinda nice.. definitely does not replace home in any which way or form, but it’s nice.




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