Haunted

I have had a great day…
One thing I can’t shake is the lady I met this morning.  I don’t know her name but I will not forget her sad face.

We met in the middle if the street…

My husband and I went to our additional job super early. I hate it, I hate having to get up early every Saturday..no chance to sleeep in, tired,not in the mood… Arriving at work we saw her, sitting in the middle of the road.

My husband pulled over and we went to her to see what was wrong. “She fell”.. the guy standing by her said. I hunched next to her and asked what was wrong.  She was crying.

I remember thinking how she smelled like a baby, baby powder or talc, freshly washed hair, her skin freezing cold as I put my arm around her. It’s winter, it’s cold. I was freezing and I thought she must be so cold.

Asking her again, what’s wrong? Why are you in the middle of the road? 

“he left me..”… Sobbing

I asked her if we could take her somewhere and she said “I have nowhere to go”

I could see she was either homeless or very poor. She got up, said she’d be ok and walked to the side walk.

My husband and I left, my heart felt heavy. We got her a hot chocolate and a chocolate fish and went back to give it to her.. As we hugged, she sobbed and her eyes were filled with tears and heartbreakingly sad.

We left, finished off at work and carried on with our day. Our day of taking the girls for haircuts, taking our eldest daughter to have her hair done for ball. Making lunch, dinner….having a glass of wine.

And through it all I am haunted by her..her sad face. How quickly we get fed up and ungrateful. I am surrounded by people I love, have a nice house, have dinner and can give my kids what they need… This women has very little, was left by someone she loves , has no home.

I feel so sad thinking about her and her heartbreak. Her day started with tears, cold and alone..  And mine started with me resenting my early morning.

I had a great day, I have no doubt she had an awful one. I hope her heart is somewhat soothed and I hope she has a warm place to stay. She won’t leave my thoughts anytime soon, and the thoughts of what she is going through will make me reflect on my own ungratefulness.

A Message from my mom

Seems it’s friendship week. Earlier today I thought about some of the people at work and how profoundly they impact my day, my mood and my outlook on the place I now have to call home.
You sometimes feel like sayimg to someone that their friendly smile is all you needed in your day, or their kind words. Well I received the following from my mom and thoughtbto share this as I find it so beautiful.. 

“This quote is profound: If  you will take the time to read I promise you’ll walk away with an enlightened perspective. The subjects covered  affect us all, on a daily basis: 

They’re  written by Andy Rooney, a man who had the gift of saying so  much with so few words.  ………Enjoy………

I’ve  learned …That  the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly  person.

I’ve  learned ….  That when you’re in love, it shows.  

I’ve  learned ….  That just one person saying to me, ‘You’ve made my day!’  makes my day.

I’ve  learned ….  That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the  most peaceful feelings in the  world.

I’ve  learned ….  That being kind is more important than being  right. 

I’ve  learned ….  That you should never say no to a gift from a child. 

I’ve  learned ….  That I can always pray for someone when I don’t have the  strength to help him in some other way. 

I’ve  learned ….  That no matter how serious your life requires you to be,  everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.  

I’ve  learned ….  That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a  heart to understand.

I’ve  learned ….  That simple walks with my father around the block on summer  nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an  adult.

I’ve  learned ….  That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets  to the end, the faster it goes.

I’ve  learned ….  That we should be glad God doesn’t give us everything we ask  for.

I’ve  learned ….  That money doesn’t buy class.

I’ve  learned ….  That it’s those small daily happenings that make life so  spectacular.

I’ve  learned ….  That under everyone’s hard shell is someone who wants to be  appreciated and loved.

I’ve  learned ….  That to ignore the facts does not change the  facts. 

I’ve  learned ….  That love, not time, heals all  wounds.

I’ve  learned ….  That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them. 

I’ve  learned …  That life is tough, but I’m tougher.  

I’ve  learned ….  That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the  ones you miss.

I’ve  learned ….  That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock  elsewhere.

I’ve  learned ….  That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one  more time before she passed away.

I’ve  learned ….  That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because  tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I’ve  learned …..  That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your  looks.

I’ve  learned …..  That when your newly born grandchild holds your little  finger in his little fist, that you’re hooked for  life. 

I’ve  learned ….  That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all  the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing.

To all of you…. Make sure you read all  the way down to the last  sentence.

It’s National Friendship Week. Show your friends how much you  care. Send this to everyone you consider.”
Dankie mammie xx

Brace yourself…

I need an expert and perhaps a little luck.. Too much to ask for? With two kids waiting to get braces I need to win the lotto. I don’t need the big win, just a sub sub sub division win. 😊 
Curse those damn bad genetics lol.  Oh well, at least I won a bonus ticket. Who knows perhaps it will be the one. 

When people told us braces in NZ were expensive they were not joking. All my daughter wants for her birthday is a set of braces to get her pearly whites in line. Poor thing. June is looming and this mother is not much closer to getting it done with Murphy’s Law creeping in every single chance it gets.

Here’s hoping that bonus ticket will pan out… that with an amazing stroke of luck and I could have myself one very very happy girl.

Holding thumbs 😊

Easter wishes

Holidays always make me home sick. It’s not just about missing family as such but missing the memories and traditions that have been apart of me for 37 years, 14 of those share with my children. 

You can try and fill the gaps to suplement the “loss”  but it just cannot be done. You can’t make up for things shared over a life time. 

I’ve been having a lot of ” it takes 2 years” moments of late. All entirely and directly connected to the fact that I miss my family and the traditions shared, the people that surrounded me for 37 years.  I want to walk into my mom’s lounge, find my dad asleep in his favorite chair, my mom snuggled in her chair with some craft in hand. I want my dad’s coffee and one of the many deserts my mom whips up in seconds when asked.

I don’t want chocolate for easter, I want my mom and dad. 

Is there an Easter Bunny big enough to bring me that..