Moments

When I was much younger, a very close friend that loved me dearly, told me how he loves the way I see the world…in shades of color. I was only 17 at the time, and he was spot on. I used to always tell him how I looked at the world and tried to think which colors I would need to mix, to paint what I saw.

Looking at the sky I always see the different shades, looking at flowers…anything really, it’s always a blend of beautiful colors.
It was so long ago, but today, more than double the amount of time has passed…and then…out of the blue, someone mentioned the way I view the world.

In an instant I remembered the conversation I had at 17 as if it was yesterday. Along with that memory so many emotions came flooding back. We get older and so easily loose sight of things, of who we are. I have always seen the world in shades of color, it is something so ingrained in my being. It will never change.ย 

Sometimes, we just have to stop, pause and remind ourselves of our rainbows. Don’t miss out on a moment that can be a special memory for years to come. Rather take the chance, grab the momentย  have the conversation, express the feeling, steal the kiss…without these special memories, we exist, but we don’t live.

Love and magic is in the air…

I love love, it’s complicated and simple, boring and exciting, planned and unpredicted. The perfect conflicting dance that is completely balanced.

It’s Valentines day in NZ tomorrow. I have prepped my gifts for my 4 kids, a simple card, some chocolate and some heart confetti. I am excited to remind them how much they are loved.

My 17 year old just shared what she is planning to gift her boyfriend…super sweet messages of encouragement and care with some simple gifts. I love the connection they have, their friendship and their journey in faith.

My 20 year old is loved and cherished by her boyfriend, he is away tomorrow, and she has chosen to spend Valentines day with our youngest..dinner date.. Special moments shared by siblings.

Love is just so beautiful, our connection with others, as family, friends, or lovers… we are so blessed. Simple actions of caring, encouragement, motivation…worth celebrating.

My Valentines wishes would be some hugs shared, some happy and loved kids, and maybe some romantic kisses.

Happy Valentines to all xx

Aunt to be ๐Ÿ˜Š

My baby sister is anxiously awaiting her first born. Her rainbow baby, a little miracle after a very difficult road of loss and struggle. We are all waiting for the moment.

I couldn’t sleep last night… I am so scared I won’t hear the notification on my phone telling me I am an aunt ๐Ÿ˜Š. I felt like a pile of emotional mushy-ness today, like I needed a hug kind of mushy-ness. That and a ton of cronuts washed down with wine.

Not being there will be heartbreaking, I would give anything to see my sister and hold my niece. Although I will miss it, I am so grateful that the little miracle she has been waiting for is nearly here. It’s so exciting…counting the days…

#almostanaunt

Butterflies…

What a December! Soul food…that’s what it was. Three weeks to relax and reset and with the bonus of my mom and dad visiting. It was exactly what I needed.

It was an amazing Christmas. I realised just how much I missed my family but also how much I appreciate my children and the adults they are becoming.

I told hubbie that this is going to be a good year. I feel ready for change… the thing I feared most for the last 3 years. I need it and if it doesn’t find me, I will go look to find it. There are so many exciting opportunities and I feel surrounded by people receiving these. This year I can’t just sit back and miss out. I can’t do the same thing and expect a different outcome.

My list of ‘keeps’ has been written, I have already begun to discard things that are just clutter and hold no importance. It’s amazing how less is actually just SO much MORE.

I am so grateful for my beautiful children, love love my amazing husband and adore my Lily pups. I have people I can call friends and people that inspire me. It is going to be a good year ๐Ÿ˜Š

Whoop whoop…Nearly there

I’m exhausted, and yet so excited I won’t be able to sleep. It’s been a crazy 2 weeks and today was suuuper long. Went in to work at the crack of dawn and came home after dinner. I really felt like falling straight into bed. That was until my sister told me her husband is on his way to drop my parents off at the airport.

They are almost on their way. I feel like I have won the lotto, I am so excited and doubt I’ll get much sleep tonight. I can’t believe they are almost here.

I can’t wait to hug them and take in the familiar smells of everything that is home to me.

We only have a short time together, and a part of me really wishes that we did win just a little bit of lotto to spoil them rotten lol. But I will take what I can get ๐Ÿ˜

So happy, in this moment, right now.. happiest I have been in 3 years.

I can’t wait.. Yay!!