Time moves quickly

I did not write this – but it resonates with me. The urgency to do things that matter now, so hard when external factors control some of those outcomes… trying to buy a house, trying to get my parents here with me. No time to wait, but no choice to do so 😔, and the fear that time will run out.

Barely the day started and… it’s already six in the evening.
Barely arrived on Monday and it’s already Friday.
… and the month is already over.
… and the year is almost over.
… and already 40, 50 or 60 years of our lives have passed.
… and we realize that we lost our parents, friends.
and we realize it’s too late to go back…
So… Let’s try, despite everything, to enjoy the remaining time…
Let’s keep looking for activities that we like…
Let’s put some color in our grey…
Let’s smile at the little things in life that put balm in our hearts.
And despite everything, we must continue to enjoy with serenity this time we have left. Let’s try to eliminate the afters…
I’m doing it after…
I’ll say after…
I’ll think about it after…
We leave everything for later like ′′ after ′′ is ours.
Because what we don’t understand is that:
Afterwards, the coffee gets cold…
afterwards, priorities change…
Afterwards, the charm is broken…
afterwards, health passes…
Afterwards, the kids grow up…
Afterwards parents get old…
Afterwards, promises are forgotten…
afterwards, the day becomes the night…
afterwards life ends…
And then it’s often too late….
So… Let’s leave nothing for later…
Because still waiting see you later, we can lose the best moments,
the best experiences,
best friends,
the best family…
The day is today… The moment is now…

We are no longer at the age where we can afford to postpone what needs to be done right away.
So let’s see if you have time to read this message and then share it.
Or maybe you’ll leave it for… ′′ later “…
And you’ll never share it….

Moments

When I was much younger, a very close friend that loved me dearly, told me how he loves the way I see the world…in shades of color. I was only 17 at the time, and he was spot on. I used to always tell him how I looked at the world and tried to think which colors I would need to mix, to paint what I saw.

Looking at the sky I always see the different shades, looking at flowers…anything really, it’s always a blend of beautiful colors.
It was so long ago, but today, more than double the amount of time has passed…and then…out of the blue, someone mentioned the way I view the world.

In an instant I remembered the conversation I had at 17 as if it was yesterday. Along with that memory so many emotions came flooding back. We get older and so easily loose sight of things, of who we are. I have always seen the world in shades of color, it is something so ingrained in my being. It will never change. 

Sometimes, we just have to stop, pause and remind ourselves of our rainbows. Don’t miss out on a moment that can be a special memory for years to come. Rather take the chance, grab the moment  have the conversation, express the feeling, steal the kiss…without these special memories, we exist, but we don’t live.

Love and magic is in the air…

I love love, it’s complicated and simple, boring and exciting, planned and unpredicted. The perfect conflicting dance that is completely balanced.

It’s Valentines day in NZ tomorrow. I have prepped my gifts for my 4 kids, a simple card, some chocolate and some heart confetti. I am excited to remind them how much they are loved.

My 17 year old just shared what she is planning to gift her boyfriend…super sweet messages of encouragement and care with some simple gifts. I love the connection they have, their friendship and their journey in faith.

My 20 year old is loved and cherished by her boyfriend, he is away tomorrow, and she has chosen to spend Valentines day with our youngest..dinner date.. Special moments shared by siblings.

Love is just so beautiful, our connection with others, as family, friends, or lovers… we are so blessed. Simple actions of caring, encouragement, motivation…worth celebrating.

My Valentines wishes would be some hugs shared, some happy and loved kids, and maybe some romantic kisses.

Happy Valentines to all xx

Aunt to be 😊

My baby sister is anxiously awaiting her first born. Her rainbow baby, a little miracle after a very difficult road of loss and struggle. We are all waiting for the moment.

I couldn’t sleep last night… I am so scared I won’t hear the notification on my phone telling me I am an aunt 😊. I felt like a pile of emotional mushy-ness today, like I needed a hug kind of mushy-ness. That and a ton of cronuts washed down with wine.

Not being there will be heartbreaking, I would give anything to see my sister and hold my niece. Although I will miss it, I am so grateful that the little miracle she has been waiting for is nearly here. It’s so exciting…counting the days…

#almostanaunt

Butterflies…

What a December! Soul food…that’s what it was. Three weeks to relax and reset and with the bonus of my mom and dad visiting. It was exactly what I needed.

It was an amazing Christmas. I realised just how much I missed my family but also how much I appreciate my children and the adults they are becoming.

I told hubbie that this is going to be a good year. I feel ready for change… the thing I feared most for the last 3 years. I need it and if it doesn’t find me, I will go look to find it. There are so many exciting opportunities and I feel surrounded by people receiving these. This year I can’t just sit back and miss out. I can’t do the same thing and expect a different outcome.

My list of ‘keeps’ has been written, I have already begun to discard things that are just clutter and hold no importance. It’s amazing how less is actually just SO much MORE.

I am so grateful for my beautiful children, love love my amazing husband and adore my Lily pups. I have people I can call friends and people that inspire me. It is going to be a good year 😊