I love this quote…kisses and wine with the one person you love most. What can be better than that?
An awful lot of awful days seems to surround me at the moment. I just cannot seem to get those big girl panties on to get through it. Anniversaries used to fun. Birthdays use to be fun. Now they are reminders that leave me feeling like an emotional wreck.
I knew the 2 year mark was approaching with memories of my last visit and goodbyes with the family. I thought it would be better, reached a milestone after all… but no, no no no. Not better, it has filled my week with me feeling like a biscuit dunked in hot coffee left soggy and falling apart.
Along with the reminders of how much I miss everyone it has been a week of checking of the boxes. The milestones of where we have been and where we are going. I have always been a little impatient. Time to get back to “business as usual” is just taking too long. So it feels like a week of checking boxes of failures more than successes.
I get it, I know it’s been a big change, but it doesn’t make me in any less of a hurry. Two years and even in that time so much change. I like to make lists and check the boxes. Mitigate risk. Have clear direction of where I am going. I have a list, un-ticked boxes and still no clear direction of where I’m going or what I’m working towards. Sigh… risk seems to be the only thing I have mitigated well, but I’m at a point where I no longer want to take the most cautious approach. Maybe big risks will bring great reward.
I don’t know. What I do know is this week won’t be a good one to make important decisions. I miss my family. I miss meeting my husband for lunch, I miss work, I miss painting, I miss being woken up early morning by my sister-in-law popping in with coffee.
Sigh. Next week will be better. Logically I can process the reality of that sentence. Emotionally I don’t understand it’s meaning.
Seems it’s friendship week. Earlier today I thought about some of the people at work and how profoundly they impact my day, my mood and my outlook on the place I now have to call home.
You sometimes feel like sayimg to someone that their friendly smile is all you needed in your day, or their kind words. Well I received the following from my mom and thoughtbto share this as I find it so beautiful..
“This quote is profound: If you will take the time to read I promise you’ll walk away with an enlightened perspective. The subjects covered affect us all, on a daily basis:
They’re written by Andy Rooney, a man who had the gift of saying so much with so few words. ………Enjoy………
I’ve learned …That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.
I’ve learned …. That when you’re in love, it shows.
I’ve learned …. That just one person saying to me, ‘You’ve made my day!’ makes my day.
I’ve learned …. That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.
I’ve learned …. That being kind is more important than being right.
I’ve learned …. That you should never say no to a gift from a child.
I’ve learned …. That I can always pray for someone when I don’t have the strength to help him in some other way.
I’ve learned …. That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.
I’ve learned …. That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.
I’ve learned …. That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.
I’ve learned …. That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
I’ve learned …. That we should be glad God doesn’t give us everything we ask for.
I’ve learned …. That money doesn’t buy class.
I’ve learned …. That it’s those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.
I’ve learned …. That under everyone’s hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
I’ve learned …. That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
I’ve learned …. That love, not time, heals all wounds.
I’ve learned …. That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
I’ve learned … That life is tough, but I’m tougher.
I’ve learned …. That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.
I’ve learned …. That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.
I’ve learned …. That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away.
I’ve learned …. That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.
I’ve learned ….. That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
I’ve learned ….. That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you’re hooked for life.
I’ve learned …. That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing.
To all of you…. Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.
It’s National Friendship Week. Show your friends how much you care. Send this to everyone you consider.”
Dankie mammie xx
My youngest daughter came home today announcing she was chosen for class monitor, she is also a student tutor to her peers, just started her own paper run for extra pocket money and was telling me how she will be saving most of it for Uni. She is super diligent and thoughtful.
The last few weeks have been manic for my husband and I with busy work days, late nights and 4 busy teenagers. I came home one night dredding the mount of washing that was waiting just to find my youngest had folded it all for me.
Tonight she tagged along to hospital as I went to visit a sick husband and chatting away I realised how much she has grown and how truly independent she has become. Some volunteer staff from St John’s popped in and she was chatting away and being a real little social butterfly. After coming home and feeling exhausted I was spoilt with a cup of coffee. Sitting in bed catching up on work with her sitting next to me reading her book was just so nice.
I was dreading sleeping alone, but she has fallen fast asleep and I’m enjoying the calmest moment I have had today with her snoring away next to me. Seeing those long legs sticking out under the duvet I realise she is not so little anymore, that little princess is growing up way too fast.
For now I’ll just sit here and enjoy her soft snoring 😴
This quote resonates within me. It is so true. People are so quick to dismiss what they have and take it for granted… But things can be lost.
It’s easy to dismiss someone, to have disregard for someones love and attention. You can be so spoilt that you take it for granted.
Be careful for those moments where you insult and dismiss, it’s very easy to be like everyone else and have what everyone has when it comes to love and your relationship.
What’s hard is being different. It’s special when it’s different. But dismiss that and you can fall into the normal boring everyday thing, what everyone does. When that happens and you realise you no longer have the special attention, affection and love, it will be too late.