Not to brag but…

I suppose all mothers brag, but I have moments where I realize I have sooo much reason to brag!  I have two beautiful daughters. They do very well at school so a good combination of beauty and brains 😀

Then besides the good grades and pretty smiles they also do well in music.  Yes yes it’s just singing and playing guitar, but none the less. One just made it through to the finals of a local singing contest.

Having just celebrated my youngest’s tenth birthday it made me reflect and look back on all the baby pics and what not. They have changed so much.

I’m so proud of the young ladies they are turning into. Big smile

On those days

On the days were your friends fight and argue with you
The in between feelings where you are sad and blue
On days where your homework feels a little too much
With no time for tasks or guitar practice or such
On days where your hair just does not play along
And the words you sing are false in every song
On days where your heart has been broken by a boy
And you are crying and sad and have no joy
On days where you are moody and cross for no reason
And not matter the weather you just hate the season

Remember I’m here…
To teach you to deal with your friends and your foes
And listen to your worries and woes
To remind you there is enough time in your day
for study and practice and to play
To listen to your songs whatever the tune
And dance around like a silly baboon
To remind you that hearts are sometimes broken
And to never lash out at others with harsh words spoken
To teach you that to be grumpy is sometimes okay
and tell you taking it out on others is not the way

Above all just remember this
I’m always here for a cuddle or a kiss
Or a tickle or a squeeze or a hug
Or to tuck you into bed all snug

Love you girls xxxx
Mommy

What would you change about your body??

I came across this video on Facebook. I so wish that all I wanted was a mermaid tail …sigh. I struggle with so many body issues on a daily basis and never really leave my house feeling completely comforable in my skin. I know how women are judged and I always have that looming thought in mind. It wasn’t always like this, and it has nothing to do with me getting older as I look mostly the same other than some wrinkles. I have some blemishes that causes me to cringe when i look in the mirror, and everytime someone looks at me I know that they see it, and they judge because it is so ugly. I don’t really know when things went pear shaped, I don’t really know where I lost the feeling of being comfortable in my own skin… I hope one day it returns and that when that day comes maybe all i would want is a mermaid tail. But for now, if I had the money I would have gone for laser and who knows what all

Steped up Step Mom

My girls have a new lady in their lives… On days like today where I scrutinize everything breaking it all down and questioning everything, I am once again reminded of the blessings that surround me regardless of everything else.

This lady is definitely one of them. My ex-husband’s new girlfriend. Reading all the fables and tales as young children, we are so indoctrinated with images of what we deem a step mom would be. My girls had all these fears of sprouting wings and poisoned apples.. Lol, not literally, but it came down to it that no step mom would ever be good.

I remember my initial discussions with them about the topic and all the reassurance they needed. Today I feel reassured, I know when they are not with me they are in good hands. I’m a paranoid mom, I worry about everything…too little sunblock, too much sugar, too little food, too much swearing, too little discipline, too much discipline, lunch boxes, extra clothes, outings, a safe driver driving my girls around… I worry about everything! It’s terrible worrying about your child’s safety and welfare if you cannot control it.

Knowing they are safe and well looked after leaves me breathing a little easier.