Aunt to be 😊

My baby sister is anxiously awaiting her first born. Her rainbow baby, a little miracle after a very difficult road of loss and struggle. We are all waiting for the moment.

I couldn’t sleep last night… I am so scared I won’t hear the notification on my phone telling me I am an aunt 😊. I felt like a pile of emotional mushy-ness today, like I needed a hug kind of mushy-ness. That and a ton of cronuts washed down with wine.

Not being there will be heartbreaking, I would give anything to see my sister and hold my niece. Although I will miss it, I am so grateful that the little miracle she has been waiting for is nearly here. It’s so exciting…counting the days…

#almostanaunt

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Butterflies…

What a December! Soul food…that’s what it was. Three weeks to relax and reset and with the bonus of my mom and dad visiting. It was exactly what I needed.

It was an amazing Christmas. I realised just how much I missed my family but also how much I appreciate my children and the adults they are becoming.

I told hubbie that this is going to be a good year. I feel ready for change… the thing I feared most for the last 3 years. I need it and if it doesn’t find me, I will go look to find it. There are so many exciting opportunities and I feel surrounded by people receiving these. This year I can’t just sit back and miss out. I can’t do the same thing and expect a different outcome.

My list of ‘keeps’ has been written, I have already begun to discard things that are just clutter and hold no importance. It’s amazing how less is actually just SO much MORE.

I am so grateful for my beautiful children, love love my amazing husband and adore my Lily pups. I have people I can call friends and people that inspire me. It is going to be a good year 😊

Whoop whoop…Nearly there

I’m exhausted, and yet so excited I won’t be able to sleep. It’s been a crazy 2 weeks and today was suuuper long. Went in to work at the crack of dawn and came home after dinner. I really felt like falling straight into bed. That was until my sister told me her husband is on his way to drop my parents off at the airport.

They are almost on their way. I feel like I have won the lotto, I am so excited and doubt I’ll get much sleep tonight. I can’t believe they are almost here.

I can’t wait to hug them and take in the familiar smells of everything that is home to me.

We only have a short time together, and a part of me really wishes that we did win just a little bit of lotto to spoil them rotten lol. But I will take what I can get 😁

So happy, in this moment, right now.. happiest I have been in 3 years.

I can’t wait.. Yay!!

Change on the horison

The end of year is in sight. Like everyone else, I look forward to the break. So much has happened this year and not much has happened this year. I feel like stagnant water, still and unmoving.

I am looking forward to Christmas in a way I haven’t for three years. I will have two very special visitors, mom and dad, visiting.

Along with my excitement, I also feel a need for change, to move forward in some or other direction.

I haven’t accomplished much this year. My focus has been blurred and I just can’t find exactly what it is that I want. What I am sure of, is that I need some change…and soon.

Ironic, because it was the one thing I did not want two years ago.

Sigh, a good long break is exactly what I need to clear my mind and to make the choices required for the new year.

For now.. I am counting down the days to when I can see my beautiful parents. So excited!!